It’s been a year and change since I last shared my voice on this little corner of the internet. To be candid, I don’t know what to say. So much has changed in my life since I decided to give this blogging thing a rest.
For those that may be confused, I decided to step away from TBB at the end of 2016. I still stand by my decision, but I can’t help but miss it from time to time. This was such a big part of my life for three years and I think it’s only natural for me to miss certain parts of the process. The writing, the creative expression, the relationships formed and the connections made. I miss you guys. *tear*
This all probably sounds ridiculously dramatic to anyone on the outside, but although necessary, this was a very hard decision for me. I had such a passion for something that brought me joy but was concurrently draining me of energy, enthusiasm, and drive. I was exhausted, anxiety-ridden, and lost; I had to look in the mirror and face reality. With all of that being said, the second I decided to follow my gut and finally make a decision, I felt a 10,000 pound weight lift off my shoulders.
It was the right decision and I knew that. It was an invigorating, albeit bittersweet, feeling.
So, what’s been going on since then?
A Look Back
2017 was… interesting. I began the journey of singleness for the first time in over four years, which opened up a lot of opportunity for self-exploration. I moved to a new neighborhood. I made new friends and strengthened old relationships. I tried new hobbies. I traveled a lot and had some of the best weekends of my life. I went to a dozen concerts and crossed off a few bucket list items (oh, and I made my first bucket list).
It’s easy for me to look back at 2017 and remember the nights spent crying myself to sleep; the moments that nobody sees or even understands. I was overwhelmingly lost and the feeling was palpable. But the truth is, I needed 2017. I needed to be lonely, to lose myself for a bit, to learn what I want and don’t want, and to understand my worth.
Going into 2018, I wanted to choose a word that would thematize how I would live my life. I decided ‘unapologetic’ was the perfect adjective. The countless, invaluable lessons I learned in 2017 will be applied and I intend on constantly moving forward toward the joy we all long for.
One of the reasons I stopped blogging was to focus on my career and give myself the opportunity to flourish and improve my skills. After working in client services, social media, and then digital content strategy, I now oversee digital marketing strategy for the same company I’ve been with for three years, and am heading toward a transition into product marketing.
In terms of TBB, I’m not really sure where I’m going to take things, if anywhere. My interests, my expertise, and more importantly, my cooking habits, have all dramatically changed. But after over a year of silence, I wanted to speak up and give you all a proper explanation. I didn’t know what to say, but I wanted to say something.
2018 will bring plenty more discovery, and I’m excited to live my life unapologetically. I’m taking it day-by-day, but I look forward to replenishing this relationship and connecting with all of you again. As always, thank you for your kindness and continuous support.
Join the conversation:
If you could choose one word for your 2018, what would it be?